And I return, I return back to my first love
The first one, He who first loved
My First Love
As thy Ruach holy spirit fills the deepest parts
The innermost thoughts that reside within
The chambers of my heart
Now I am your as thy art mine
Now I can see your everlasting why
As I pondered often of your unconditional love
Thinking I was not apart
That I had to try to gain thy love
A love that always is, and never was
A love that has followed me through tests and trials
For ye have inspired me with thy everlasting vows
And as a husband thou have pursued me
Relentlessly, Determined to bring me back into thy arms
To be lost without a cause, I am convinced that I never was
For your light have shined upon me in the dark.
And like Tom Hanks on cast away I was in the strong deluge
In belief that I had found thee in New Age Mysticals
And I was in love with stones and herbs, I sought creation when I hurt
And I had forgotten how you pursued me when I chose another's works
I had forgotten of your unfailing love, how you protected my little ones
when a kidnapper came to take her beloved face away
What would have been my untimely fate, an endless sorrow never escaped
You shone a light, a glorious light that parted a crowd from her eyes to mine
And I could see her innocent hands as the kidnapper dropped her hands and his jaw
Astonished as to how this pathway was created like the fog
He was assured he would escape as the crowd was very large....But my God
My God, my Yah... My Jesus ....you are...Yahuah Nissi, your victory song
How could I forget when you sent your angels to me...when my heart couldn't take any more
When the abuse became waist deep, when I was stuck in defeat, when I became the very thing
That's when You Are... You sent me messengers to deliver my ears the greatest words of all
It is done.
It is done, and I was done, though I had no clue as to how it was
How could 3 years worth of abuse be over in one night?
How could a pattern reoccurring just unfold before my sight?
But you God, You somehow placed it in the officer's hearts
To not leave until I chose to leave.... there they stood, unmoved by my abuser's charm
As so I praise you now, here and ever after. Years after your grand introduction
How you showed your face to me when I returned back to my bondage
How you had nursed me back to health
How you adorned me with oils frankincense and myrrh
And even now, you fill me with your spirit till I overflow
I am convinced you always were, still to this day you are, and forever will be
My first Love.
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